Last night a very important decision was reached. I don’t know what the repercussions will be but I am still furious at the actions of a certain someone. I don’t think furious is the right word – its actually ‘disappointed’. I thought that when the time came, that person would stand up for everything that we meant, but that wasn’t to be. I just have to come to terms with the fact that it all happened so quickly. No remorse, no guilt, just a hollow ‘am sorry for everything’. Disappointing. As much as I hate to admit it, Hu was right all along. I feel bad now that I didn’t listen to him.

Do you feel pain,
With blood seeping in every vein?
Or is it just me,
Trying very hard, in vain?

Am sure you have your problems,
And am sure they’re bigger than me,
But everything has a solution,
And that doesn’t have to kill you and me.

You know, while doing the site design yesterday, I was going through all my posts from the last few months and I realised that they are mostly sobby, ‘depressed looser’ kinda posts. How the mighty have fallen, eh? I keep telling myself that this is another phase of life… so I’ll just live it. Take every day as it comes and try to smile wide at the good moments and shrug off all the bad ones and let them not affect me.

On a different note, all my work for the Dec special issue is over. This time we are giving out 5 magazines and 5 DVDs. This was such a pain in the ass and believe me when I tell you, the effort was monumental. Imagine this – you are doing 5 month’s work in one month, both for the magazine and hunting for the DVD contents! Add to that, painful office relocation and you see how few days we had to play with. Most of my weekends this month, I’ve been working – either from home or at office, trying to catch up on the deadline. Am glad it’s done and dusted.

Listening to: Chad Kroeger feat. Santana – Into the Night and Evanescence – Lithium.